Thursday, March 1, 2012

the end of the world as I know it

On February 18, my dad passed away.  The short fight he had with lung cancer was a tough one.  December 1, 2011-February 18, 2012... ridiculously short if you think about how fast 2-1/2 months normally goes by.  Losing my dad is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through and I'm only 12 days in.

I mean, I'm 27 and I don't have my dad anymore.

Who could ever plan for that?

I'm so thankful for the time I did have him.  He was an amazing man, father and a huge part of my world.  He was a great friend and co-worker.  We spent an incredible amount of time together and I miss him like crazy.

This is a picture my aunt gave me last week.  It captures my dad and I perfectly.

I feel cheated.  I feel that he was taken too soon.  Obviously, God had a plan, but I just don't understand it...and I desperately want to know what it is.

17 comments:

Carolyn said...

I'm so sorry. :( I know how hard it is to lose a parent... it's just not fair. :( Please know that I'm thinking about you friend!!

Unknown said...

I don't have words for you sweet friend but I have love and hugs. I'm so sorry you have had to go through this - from the bottom of my heart. He was an amazing man. Love you and continue to keep you and your family in my prayers daily.

Lindsay said...

oh my goodness. i am so sorry sweet girl. i am so sorry that you have had to go through this. praying for you and your family and for time to heal your heart.

megan said...

So sorry to read this, Christina! I had no idea. I'm sure it's even harder to deal with since it was such a short fight. I hope the happy memories of your Dad get you through the pain. :)

Katie said...

I am so sorry! My heart goes out to you. It is too young for both of you; to have your daddy taken away, and for him to have his life taken. I'm so, so sorry - I just don't know what else to say. Nothing can heal that pain right now. My prayers go out to you and your family.

Michelle (michabella) said...

Oh Christina, I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you. Truly it does. Just remember the memories and be so thankful for the 27 years y'all did get to have together, especially that he got to walk you down the isle. It's never easy. Thinking and praying for you sweet friend <3

Melissa said...

I am so sorry for your loss! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

Lisa@The Daily RUNdown said...

I'm so so sorry for your loss. Cancer is such an evil senseless beast. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family

Unknown said...

I am sorry to hear about your loss. Its probably very easy to question God's purpose at this time. I will be praying for you.

The Presutti's said...

Praying for you and your family :)

Dixie Bell Designs said...

So sorry to hear about your loss. :( I am praying and sending good thoughts to you and your family.

Café Moka said...

I'm so sorry about your loss Christina.
I thought the tumor was shrinking, this was so quick...
I hate cancer. Who doesn't?
Big hugs to you. xox

Meg O @watchmegorun said...

omg Christina I'm so so sorry. It's so unfair :( Sending you so many hugs and thoughts for you and your family. Seriously, if you need anything, let me know. I would be glad to talk if you need someone to talk to. Hang in there, friend

Anonymous said...

i have no words. my heart hurts for you. i cannot even imagine the pain that you are going through right now. i know how special dad's are to us girls, and to lose your dad so early is devestating. i am praying for you!

Melissa Jo said...

I am so so sorry sweet friend. You've been on my mind lately and prayed for you several times. I can't imagine the pain that your going through, but I'm here for you if you need anything.

Anonymous said...

We will never know the answers of a loss, we can only find comfort and peace in God. I can't imagine what you've been through, and I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could do to make it better. but instead i'll pray for you!

Amanda said...

I am so so so unbelievable sorry! I cannot even begin to imagine what you must be going through right now. I am sending you so much love and prayers right now, and I only hope that there's something I could do to ease your pain at this time. Let me know if you need ANYTHING at all. Love of love from your friend in CT!!!