Ever feel like running away??

So, the wedding is getting so close and I'm kinda done.  I know that it's a wonderful time in my life, but it's become a little overwhelming, everything that is happening right now.  All good things, minus some guest list drama, but I just feel done.  I've been looking up everything for our marriage license and they perform ceremonies until 3:30. every. day.  Tempted?  Why yes, I am.  I guess we just wouldn't tell anyone, ever.  They'd all probably be mad if they knew. But that would leave us spending 3 extra weeks in wedded bliss laughing at the absurdity of whether or not this or that will happen, because we'd already be married, so who cares at this point?? I already don't, so why are some of the small 'what if's' such a big deal?

Let me explain...I'm so excited to get married to this guy:

He's my best friend!!

I want the day to be beautiful and special.  I have picked out everything with care so it will go with what our vision has been for our wedding, but there's about 3 weeks left and so many things that you just cannot control.  Like...the weather, or whether or not guests that arrive early to our outdoor, on the beach wedding, will or will not try to enter the tent where the reception is prior to the ceremony, or if local beach goers will try and go into the tent and eat our fruit display, or if someone will trip because the park might be too dark after sunset, or if it will be windy, or if people will get lost, or if there won't be enough parking...ahhh!!!!

We've done our best to rectify all these things, but sometimes, there are things out of our control.  I have accepted this, so why can't others that are involved?  It gets very frustrating rehashing these conversations.  This day should not be focused around fruit displays and wind.  My veil might fly off because it might be blowing 60 miles an hour, but we'll laugh, say 'I do' and be on our way to celebrate with friends and family at the reception, regardless of any other the things mentioned above.  Hey, we'd have a fun story to laugh about when we're 80 in rockers.  That is what the day represents...the official start of our lives together, the commitment we make before God and our loved ones...not trivial things outside of our control.  Some days, it just gets frustrating.  This past week has been just that.  I know it's just trying to be helpful, but I am just over worrying about things!

These next couple weeks are going to be a frenzy.  I'm going to continue moving stuff out of my place, I have friends renting my place that are starting to move in.  Then there's dress fittings, hair to be cut and highlighted, centerpieces to create, one of my good friends from high school getting married in 9 days!! a bachelorette party, and the week of the wedding.  Like whoa!

If things don't chill out, this may be us at the end of the month...